Some days things are just clear...

with that, I take some time to do some writing here.

Where to start.. I probably have already said this here, and will more then likely refer to it quite a bit in future posts, I believe that life is something to be learned from.  another fun way to say that came to me this morning: "Life is a show, the world is your audience." not too incredible that I would see life that way, as I aspire to be a such a clown, but we will get to that.

Who are you? Take a moment and think about it and formulate some kinda answer...


Go ahead....












Seriously Answer it.
















Ok, did you answer it, if you did WOAH! good job cause I couldnt do it!!!
I have been trying to answer that question (in one way or another) for as long as I can remember, and every answer I have been able to come up with has never been close to complete. See the thing is at least for me I find that question unanswerable, for to answer it, IMMEDIATELY limits your potential. If we indeed answer such a question " I am so and so" then you BECOME that for that is what you believe, and thus you have effectively  limited who you COULD be. 

Rather, I find a much more valid question: Who do you want to be?  
Now lets have a look at that. lets let it stew for a bit. let the thought dance around in your head. Now I am not going to pretend to understand the inner workings of your, or anyone's mind, so for the remainder of this one way conversation I am going to use myself as a shiny sparkling example! Lucky You!


"Who do you want to be?"
When I look at that question, I find the first thing that happens: I see those I admire. In a flash of faces they bolt through my mind, and I start to see similarities between them, and in that I see a laundry list of traits I wish to better in myself, and I can start to see a hazy image among those I admire... of this person I WISH to be. The "Ideal Me" if you will.

Here are some of the qualities of my "Ideal Me" (of course yours will be different)
The Ideal Me, is Selfless, Open, Honest (truly honest), an Open book, Ceaselessly hard working. Passionate about EVERYTHING he does (regardless of the "scale") Actively positive, Energetic (Like Fraggle rockin LIGHTNING), Uplifting... the list DOES go on, but these are my initial thoughts.  

Now I can see a shady image of THAT guy, of who I WANT to be. What I want for my life. 
and when I see those, I look back on my life, as it has been, and I can see myself trying to figure out "who I am" and I see my failings over and over again, bad decisions, silly mistakes, time after time. But here is the real kick in the teeth, seeing that guy who you WANT to be, is not NEARLY enough to actually create CHANGE.

 You see, now Im looking at things in a way that does not limit my growth, but im still only HALF way there. The first step to being who you want to be is of course thinking about it, making yourself see it. Now thats all nice and Dandy, but it is in the end... not all that meaningful.. If I really wanted a PB&J sandwich, yes thinking about it is a start, but I wont ever HAVE it until I go get myself one. SO I find that if I truly desire to be the person I WANT to be, there is only ONE way to do it... and it is both ridiculously simple, and RIDICULOUSLY difficult (here is a big part, brace yourselves hide your children!) LIVING as the person I WANT to be. Taking an active approach to BE that person, to LIVE as they would, keeping a mind open to the idea and throughout the day, (every day) and ACTIVELY responding to life the way they would.

Thats about all I have to say for now!
L8ah!